Life Recently

Life has been so full recently. 

My heart is so full. 

 A couple of times in the past weeks, I’ve literally had to pinch myself that this is the life I am living — the life I have created for myself.  

Such a unique life, and a very different path. 

 If I had of fully known what it entailed, would I have chosen it? Maybe not. 

I would have certainly thought twice. 

I look back at myself being so naïve. And now I look at myself and laugh, for it seems like I am forever choosing the hard path — the path with the biggest lessons yet on that same spectrum, the biggest expansion. 

Would I suggest this path to people? Not sure I would… 

 But on the other had something in my soul has been so deeply satiated. 

 If I would have known the feeling I would carry with me, I know that I would have chosen it 1000 times over.

 And I would suggest to anyone to follow their hearts, where ever that path may take them, and how ever far off the beaten track that may take them too. And the exciting thing is, that it’s really just the beginning. 

 In that recognition there has been tears of joy.

Tears of wonder, and tears of immense gratitude. 

 I’ve slogged so hard to get here over the years, but particularly over this past year — there has not been a day without spirit work, and there has really not been a day that I haven’t been in service. 

I’ve pushed myself and stretched myself beyond any limits I thought were possible. 

I’ve been challenged in inconceivable ways, ways in which have taken so much determination and inner strength to surpass.  

My life has changed. Forever. 

 And a times, I feel a subtle form of grief for the past, for what was, for the life that I no longer am able live, whilst I simultaneously hold excitement for the now, and for what is to come. 

 There are many more stories and learnings to be expressed when the time is right — so stay tuned as they steep in my being.